(I’m tossing this up here because if I make a blogpost about this on the site it’ll probably come off as me digging for compliments.)
I don’t consider myself to be an artist.
I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. Why am I spending almost all my spare time making comics when the act of drawing is so slow and painful for me?
I don’t really read comics. I kinda don’t actually like comics, webcomics or otherwise. There’s a real short list of comics I’ll read, but I don’t have much interest in comics in general and don’t see much future in the industry (honestly). At least not for me.
I don’t ever have a burning urge to draw. I don’t sketch. I don’t draw random things at random times, or constantly challenge myself with new character designs, etc. I never feel like drawing for drawing’s sake. Almost literally, all the drawing I do you see in Brightest. I see REAL artists around me who have this burning desire to draw at all times, to constantly stretch and grow and tackle new ideas, that every page of their sketchbooks is something new. I don’t even have a sketchbook right now. I forced myself to fill a moleskin before starting Brightest, and it was a great exercise, but now that I’ve got Brightest I haven’t touched a sketchbook since.
So if I don’t like comics, and I don’t like drawing, why am I drawing a comic in almost all of my free time?
I want to tell stories. The fact that it’s a comic is just because I could draw, and I know people will read a story easier if there are visuals. The problem is, as life goes on and gets more complicated, I’m finding less and less time to devote to drawing - I’ll be honest, I dove into it because I was working through depression. I’m not depressed anymore. Life’s pretty rad, actually, and I’m not getting to revel in it as much as maybe I should.
I’m still going to finish Brightest (which maybe has another year or two of updates, depending on how much work I can maintain in a week), but beyond that I honestly don’t know. Maybe I’ll tell stories as prose instead. That’s a whole lot less work. Maybe I will still have a burning urge to do a comic. Maybe I’ll actually get the money and crew together to make a movie or TV show.
Who knows? A lot can happen in 2 years.